Moving Out of NYC and Moving Into the World
The most powerful forms of growth can’t be seen with your own eyes, but they will change the way your eyes see the world.
If you follow me on Instagram, you may have picked up on my subtle hints here and there, but now it’s all real and happening- I’m officially moved out of my safety net and hitting the road! After 3 years (and 3 summers of internships, so it really feels longer than that), I’m moving on up and out of NYC and seeing where the winds blow me (figuratively of course but also somewhat literally).
When I moved to NYC after college, I came here for an industry I thought I was dying to be apart of, but that truly didn’t resonate with me below the surface. I just didn’t know to look there, or even how. I think a part of me didn’t want to dare to.
I was never emotionally tied to the city itself, had no close friends or family here, but as a fairly independent person already, I knew it would be an exciting challenge and one that I was ready for. Since then, I’ve moved 3 apartments, 4 different roommates, changed careers, had friendships and relationships come and go, but by far the biggest change was in myself. I thought I knew who I was when I got here, but turns out I had no idea.
The person I am now, about to travel the world with no set agenda or timeline, working independently and with others on projects I truly care about, and completely trusting in the abundance that this universe has to offer from simply following my soul work, is soo far from the person that first moved here; a girl uncertain of herself but was too afraid to let others see it, who thought failing to have a plan meant planning to fail, and who placed the weight of her happiness on things outside of herself.
And it wasn’t all that long ago that she saw the world so differently, seeing it as a series of events that happened for a reason, surely, but that she had no control over. As a result, she felt a constant resistance to it; trying to push herself down a path that didn’t feel aligned but that sounded nice on paper to other people.
It wasn’t an overnight change in the slightest, but the growth I’ve experienced has come in the form of understanding that I’m not a pawn in this game of life, but I’m a player, and rather than playing against the universe, we’re very much on the same team.
Even though past me and current me are very different, they are both me. The essence of who I am is still here, and always will be, even as I continue to grow into future me. I am forever grateful for past me, for coming to this city and allowing it to pick and prod at me just as much as it uplifted and pushed me forward. And I am looking out for future me as my best friend, my true love; she deserves nothing but happiness and to follow a life she adores, and current me is doing everything in my power in the present moment to make that happen, and I know there are forces greater than myself helping to make it so.
So where am I going? Anywhere and everywhere! I used to say that I was going to stay in New York so long as it made sense, but it only “made sense” because I didn’t want to ask myself the complicated questions.
Now, I will travel and experience my life to find that place that calls to me, and never settle for less.
The thing I had to realize in making a life change like this is that no one is telling you what you can or can’t do except your own damn mind. And that at the end of the day, we aren’t on this world to be “successful,” but to be happy. Satisfied. In full alignement. Success merely follows happiness, and not the other way around.
There are so many unknowns about this next chapter of my life, and for once I have no desire to skip ahead and try to see what’s coming. Instead, I’m learning how to be perfectly content in the now, and that so long as I can commit to that, satisfaction and success is inevitable.
Thank you, friend, for reading this. Surely, you’ve been a part of my journey without even knowing it, and for that I am grateful. I hope you stick around as it continues, as I have a feeling of certainty that the best is only yet to come ;)